Hello beautiful people!
Sorry for the disappearance. If you’ve read my last few posts you know I have not been doing well at all and I kind of took a break from just about everything. I really just was not up to anything, including writing. I’m starting to feel a little bit better on a daily basis where I can now get out of my house for a few hours each day and hopefully start to function like I was before the flare up.
Today I had a really good day. My mom took me to see Waitress on Broadway which I’ve been wanting to see FOREVER. We did a lot of walking around and exploring the city and going shopping and just having fun. It was just overall a great day. I had so much fun and loved having some bonding time with my mom. I think that while I was out and about and having so much fun I just kind of…overdid it. This happens a lot when I have good days because I want to do so much when I feel well enough to do anything. I am currently suffering the consequences. All of the walking around and not really resting or taking breaks really took a toll on my body. I am now throwing up and dizzy and in so much pain. I feel miserable but I had an amazing day and to me that’s almost worth it. I wouldn’t trade the day I had for the world it is just unfortunate that these are the consequences I have to face because of my illnesses. It isn’t fair, other people get to do these things all the time and not feel any consequence whatsoever, but life isn’t fair. I was dealt the short end of the stick. I’ll be okay, I’m just frustrated. At least tonight I get to rest and don’t have anything to do tomorrow.
Friday I start a new job and I am extremely nervous. I am scared that my new boss/coworkers will not be accepting of my illnesses and won’t let me take time off if I need it. I’m hoping that this job works out better than my last. I really could use the money and I feel like if I have a job, I’ll start to feel more like a “normal” person. Who knows. It’s also late at night so I’m getting caught up in my thoughts. I should probably go to bed.
Goodnight beautiful people.