chronic illness · gastroparesis · great day · hope · stomach problems · tough night · Uncategorized

I’m Back!

Hello beautiful people!

Sorry for the disappearance. If you’ve read my last few posts you know I have not been doing well at all and I kind of took a break from just about everything. I really just was not up to anything, including writing. I’m starting to feel a little bit better on a daily basis where I can now get out of my house for a few hours each day and hopefully start to function like I was before the flare up.

Today I had a really good day. My mom took me to see Waitress on Broadway which I’ve been wanting to see FOREVER. We did a lot of walking around and exploring the city and going shopping and just having fun. It was just overall a great day. I had so much fun and loved having some bonding time with my mom. I think that while I was out and about and having so much fun I just kind of…overdid it. This happens a lot when I have good days because I want to do so much when I feel well enough to do anything. I am currently suffering the consequences. All of the walking around and not really resting or taking breaks really took a toll on my body. I am now throwing up and dizzy and in so much pain. I feel miserable but I had an amazing day and to me that’s almost worth it. I wouldn’t trade the day I had for the world it is just unfortunate that these are the consequences I have to face because of my illnesses. It isn’t fair, other people get to do these things all the time and not feel any consequence whatsoever, but life isn’t fair. I was dealt the short end of the stick. I’ll be okay, I’m just frustrated. At least tonight I get to rest and don’t have anything to do tomorrow.

Friday I start a new job and I am extremely nervous. I am scared that my new boss/coworkers will not be accepting of my illnesses and won’t let me take time off if I need it. I’m hoping that this job works out better than my last. I really could use the money and I feel like if I have a job, I’ll start to feel more like a “normal” person. Who knows. It’s also late at night so I’m getting caught up in my thoughts. I should probably go to bed.

 

Goodnight beautiful people.

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chronic illness · gastroparesis · great day · hope

I Have Some Amazing People in my Life

Hello Beautiful People!

Today I am feeling a whole lot of love. As you guys know, I’ve been really sick. I still can’t eat anything and feel pretty down and have no energy most of the time. I can’t hold any actual food down and it’s getting so frustrating for me. I’ve been SO upset recently BUT I have some pretty amazing people in my life who pulled off a really awesome thing today:

I have a best friend who lives about an hour/ hour and a half away from me, which absolutely sucks. I never get to see her but we constantly text. She knows how upset I’ve been from being so sick so she decided to come up with a plan to cheer me up. She texted my boyfriend on monday and asked him if he thought she would be able to come to my house and surprise me and if he thought it was a good idea. Obviously he knew I would love that so he gave her my mom’s phone number and they worked on this plan for like 3 days. I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO CLUE. I came home from therapy today and was just hanging out in my room watching YouTube and I get a text from my friend and she says “go open your front door” and I was like “why would she tell me do that nothings gonna be out there she’s messing with me” and THERE SHE WAS. She was right at my front door with two bottles of Gatorade and some goldfish crackers (which are the only things I can hold down). I CRIED. She told me that she knew I was feeling so bad so we were gonna spend the day hanging out and watching a Disney movie marathon. This was the absolute BEST surprise/pick me up I could ever ask for. I have some really amazing people in my life and I’m so grateful for it. I feel so much love right now, even though I’m still sick I feel like I’m on top of the world.